Laugh Stronger and Louder especially in the Face of Adversity

Logged in to my control panel with the intention to blog, but somehow, stared at the screen for half an hour, and came up with nothing. Many things flying through my head, but make no mistake, i’m not depressed nor upset, just contemplative. This kind of mood strikes me once in a while and takes me quite some time to get out.

Things happen and i firmly believe that everything happens for a reason. We make choices and every choice we make shapes us into who we are. Every choice we make is BECAUSE of precisely who we are and further makes us who we are. Maybe part of the contemplative mood is because I’m somehow reminded of a very bad experience i had years ago. I chose to forgive, but i can never forget and sometimes i wonder how i would have turned out if that had never happened to me. I have wanted to talk to about this ‘past’ of mine to a friend who’s almost a sister to me, but i didn’t dare. So many a times, i felt like talking to her about it, but i’m scared to tell her about it because of how much she cares. In fact, she never knew exactly, but she was the one who led me out of the shadow. She’s like my sister to me, and i have absolute trust in her, but i’m so afraid of the repercussions of ’spilling the beans’. Will i even have the courage to publish this entry?

Forgiveness is not a particularly easy thing to do. It took me years. Forgetting… is a way much higher level. People say: forgive and forget. I’ve done the former, i want to do the latter, but the past haunts me sometimes.

I would like to think i am stronger than a lot of people because of what has happened to me before, even though i have no way of know for sure. I do hope not one person will experience the same thing as i did.

Adeline will laugh stronger and louder especially in the face of adversity.