1 Down, 3 to Go…

Heart pounding, i steal a glance… It is sitting there, just right there – where my hand can reach. My hands reach out… “NO!” i tell myself – once you start, you won’t be able to stop! No, no, no. I force myself to look away, but my eyes can’t help straying back. It feels like torture to me. Minutes feel like hours. Trust me, it is no easy task for me, to keep my hands from reaching out.

More than once, i have lapsed. Yes, i am guilty.

Damn the magic books.

It’s so hard for me to keep away from them.

Did i get you there? Guess most probably not. Hahaha! Examinations are a ‘chore’ and a ‘torture’, and 2 more years in University feels like being put into a hell hole for me.

Yet on the other hand, i cannot help but think there is a cosmic force at work. 2 years down, the economy would probably be much better – there is no denying that the entertainment industry is one industry that is highly affected by the economy. That is the nature of the industry, but as always, Mr Boss Man has got plans – honestly, that is one man with great foresight, vision and leadership. But i sidetrack. Anyway, this means that NOT graduating next year may not be that bad a thing after all.

My mum keeps asking me if i know exactly what the ‘road’ i want to take entails – it is not a ’stable’ job; though how a job can be ’stable’ in the world of the 20th century confounds me. Admit it: there’s no longer such a thing as a ’stable’ job. The economy of the world do not allow for that. The cliche still rings true for a reason. The only thing that is constant is change. Besides, i never thought that the road will be easy and wide. It will be lined with obstacles but i will adapt. Solve et coagula.

Right now, school is not an obstacle. It is a growth process. The two years when i’m still sheltered, without the need to really think of salary as survival in monetary terms, i will take to toughen up myself. To learn and grow. It is all in preparation of what i want to do.

It’s not 3 down, 4 to go.

It’s half year down, one and a half more years to go. More like a 1 down, 3 to go.

The numbers seem to look better this way – at least for today.

“When you want something, all the universe conspires in helping you to achieve it.”   ~Paulo Coelho