These days, i barely have time to sleep, much less blog. Academia and so many things else just pile on non-stop. School is unusually heavy with unending assignments, tests and presentations. Work has never stopped, and i’ve never stopped loving my work. Still, at times, all i want to do is to just stop and take a breather.

I want more time to contemplate, i need more time to think. There are so many things i wanna learn, so many things i need to brush up on, but the darn school work just never stops.

As you can see, this is pretty much a ‘complain’ entry.

But all that aside, i love what i have in my life right now (exception of schoolwork). There are things ‘going on’ for me that i never thought i could have. There are people in my life i cannot fathom to be without. There are so many things that i’m learning and absorbing right now. There are things that could have made it better, but one can’t complain can she. Not when i’m so fortunate. At times i’m even worried that this is just a dream that i’d wake up from. Perhaps that’s why i work (in my friend’s term) unusually hard – though i never think it’s unusual. I’ll keep pushing on!

Honestly, half a leg is out of the coffin (think school) and i have about 1 FYP semester plus one more month of exams to go only. And of course plus all the work in between. I cannot wait to get my certificate and start work, because then i would be able to put my mind to work. But before that, i’m still thankful for so many things going on now.

Last night was the Merlin Awards and really the first time for me to be ‘jaga-ing’ the AVL for a full hour long event show, from mic to music, to light to video. Ultimate Magic was a first, but the AVL crew had already been rehearsing with us for months. Whereas for ytd, it was the first time we were working together.

Few people ever appreciate the backends of shows that happen. I do now, especially after doing backstage crewing and AVL etc. And unlike most performers, while i do love to take to the stage, i have never felt that doing backstage/ crew work was any lesser. To me there is enormous gratification in the success of a show, even if i’m never in the spotlight. I know for a fact, some people have never understand that high that i get from every successful show/ event that i’ve been.

I’m gonna work hard and gain more experience from every single show that i participate in, in whatever ways, to make myself better and get better in every single thing i do.